Wigged Out!

I had my doctors appointment yesterday...it was basically a consultation about everything I already know. A review if you will. For me, it was an appointment to see if I liked this new-to-me Joplin doctor. I have had so many of you email me stressing the importance of 'clicking' with the oncologist (and staff) (thank you! :) and he wasn't too bad. Between you and me though, after seeing Dr. F at NIH, I doubt I'll find anyone that remarkably affable as he is here or anywhere.

After my appointment at NIH (you can read about it here), Dr. F told me it was a good idea to go wig shopping BEFORE I start chemotherapy and before I start losing my hair. I thought that was pretty strange at the time, but after thinking about it, it made sense. Going wig shopping now while I feel good and not because I have to. So my MIL and I went to the Pink Boutique which is a shop in town that carries hats, scarves, wigs even handbags and jewelry for people fighting cancer. The women there are so nice and caring, we spent quite a bit of time there trying on wigs. I tried on a really short one and a long one but I really liked the mid length the best. I couldn't believe how real they seemed. These are crappy phone pictures, but you see how realistic it is. The color was even almost identical to mine. This is a wig!:

I'm no stranger to wigs...I remembered this picture of me (and my dad rockin' a moustache and a broken hand) circa 1978 and I'm wearing one of mom's 'fashion' wigs. No wonder I had fun yesterday, it was like playing dress-up!

I've got a whole gamut of tests next week..including a MRI, an ultrasound, a cat scan, a mammogram and a echocardiogram. It'll be a party, hu?

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The fear keeps trying to creep in, and it's exhausting trying to keep it at bay. I can't help thinking about my boys, who is going to take care of them if I'm not here? I've got to be strong though, we still have normal life to live, my thoughts of keeping them home from school just so I can stare at them is just a little unrealistic, or is it?

 We've told Keegan everything from the beginning and I think we are going to tell Logan this coming week. I've been looking for books to help Logan understand a little better, he is only six, in case you don't know. Keegan said he wants to help shave my head when the time comes...is it weird that I'm proud of him for that?