I think I've always been guilty. Rushing around always in a hurry to get things at a certain level of my idea of perfection, weekly tablescapes, handmade ornaments, fully decorated for the Christmas season, sometimes starting on Thanksgiving day, I'm embarrassed to admit....but this year, this year is different. It will be different, it's the 29th of November and I'm still looking at my fall mantle and not wanting to take it down. I'm wanting to cling to the hands of time and beg them to stop. And I'm not talking about the business side of things, Lord, I started making Christmas wreaths in October....I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about what is in my head and heart that I want things to go slower.
Is it because I'm sick? That I don't want to rush around anymore? Because I've gotten older? I'm not that little girl in the picture above sitting beside her sister in her underwear...with her whole life ahead of her. I don't know how much time I have left, I know none of us do...but sometimes the realization of it overwhelms me.
I'm taking this season deliberately slow and gradual... I am going to look around a little more, enjoy a little more, pray a little more. I am going to do the things that my body allows me to do and not worry about the rest. It's just not that important. So, if you don't see me around here as much, just know that I am taking it one day at a time. I'm not taking hiatus or anything, I mean, the tree will eventually get up and I definitely want to share that with you and I've got lots of ideas and crafts to accomplish ....I think you know what I mean.
The new chemo regimen is not as bad as the first one, I mean I had chemo on Monday and it's Thursday and I'm not in bed...it's practically a walk in the park! Kidding.
I just want to encourage you and inspire you to take the season in stride, to really enjoy what is important to you in {your} life....to be a girl with pigtails in your underwear. :)
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